Today my exam is over
I screwed the paper
did not finish my mastering physics practice
I guess He teaches me something
what it means to have faith
it means to stay calm and believe even when everything is not right
it means to be persevere when everything seems hard and unpleasant
God, if I cannot have A on this module, if You think it is best for me, let it be
make me strong to accept it
and not to give up
not to stop dreaming
to keep hoping
and to keep struggling
I felt so lazy today
I Have not start studying for tomo's test
My mind pushed me to think about yesterday's paper
I was so afraid I made mistake
I was afraid about tomo's test
Today the Holy Cross has evening mass
since it coincides with the parish talk, it will take 2 hours for the mass
I think I will be going if I have done my studying
but since I have not yet started anything up to now
I don't think I am going
Ummm...
this is the examination
evils are trying to seduce me
I should not fall
Be strong
I will start now
God, Please help
O Jesus, meek and humble of heart! Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
From the desire of being loved,
From the desire of being sought after,
From the desire of being honored,
From the desire of being praised,
From the desire of being preferred to others,
From the desire of being consulted,
From the desire of being approved,
Deliver me, Jesus.
From the fear of being humbled,
From the fear of being despised,
From the fear of suffering rebuffs,
From the fear of being calumniated,
From the fear of being forgotten,
From the fear of being ridiculed,
From the fear of being injured,
From the fear of being suspected,
Deliver me, Jesus.
That others may be loved more than I,
That in the opinion of the world,
others may increase, and I may decrease,
That others may be chosen and I set aside,
That others may be praised and I unnoticed,
That others be preferred to me in everything,
That others may be more holy than I,
provided I may become as holy as I should.
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.