First, I learned that I INDEED cannot expect too much from someone whom I know is unreliable. I can expect something, but not too much. This is not the good part, but still, I learned something.
Second, ate SUBWAY with my brother and shopped fresh fruit with him afterwards. we chat about many things and it was fun. One most significant part for me is that when he commented on someone-whom-I-cannot-expect-too-much-from (XD) : "Other than physics he really is a fool in anything yah? It is a common sense, what... you are not supposed to (only) talk about other girl when you are with your girlfriend. This is ridiculous, you didn't meet for 2 weeks and after such time you spent only 30 minutes face to face and all he get to say is 'the Chinese girl with whom I spent time with yest was pretty loh..heheh..'" Even my lil bro knows that. I think it is not too much if I think he is so insensitive, or he doesnt care at all? After today I really don't want to care... anyway, I love my little brother! gonna treat him Bak Kut Teh. not because he supported me, more because it was really nice of him to spend his time with me today.
Third, had fun chit chat with Jaslyn. oso found a great japanese stall in PGP.!!
Fourth, meet great people, Gloria and Rudy, who made and compose 2 good songs for competition and want me to sing in one of their song. After such effort during the last minute towards deadline of submission, we failed to submit one of the song. But for me, this is a great experience. It is a very high appreciation to me, for them wanting me to sing the song. I did make mistake, but I tried the best I could because I know how much this means for them. Afterwards, have dinner and chat about lotsa stuff. blablahblah.... I found my piano teacher!!!!! Rudy is a piano tutor and he can give me lesson at reasonable price. OMG!!! got so excited about this.! Also have a quality chat with Gloria. She is a very nice girl. Our conversation opened my mind and excited me. We talked about social life, about travelling, about working experience... etc etc.. She is smart, eiii.
Fifth, met an ex-exchange senior at the bus stop on the way back to PGP. Also have quality chat. Learned from his experience in living university life. And I realized that I have a lot of chance to improve myself in various fields in NUS.
Last but not the least,, chat with my ibu on the phone. I told her the story of the day, and she was so happy to listen to it. Great.. great..
OMG, oso, the moon is full and bright and clearly visible right in front of me through the window..!!!!
wah.. an ciang~
am so thankful today.
January 2010
interesting facts about him, found in wikipedia:
honestly, that's what I am feeling today. I am supposed to finish my lab report and while preparing for it my iTunes play Keiko Matsui's Trees.. OH, I am so lovin it!!!!! then I moved my fingers and closed my eyes, as if I could play (someday I will!!!!!!!). Then I was reminded of Yanni, my favourite composer. I used to listen to his songs at home. I got his live VCD. It has been a long time that I do not watched them again. So I searched through youtube and find them..
A quick review on what's hippie today:
First of all, I had my confession and really joyful afterwards!
Father Joe came back from Macau and gave a very inspiring class today. He introduced to me a book written recently by Pope Benedict XVI and read (and changed the hearts of!) many technocrats in the world. It is "Caritas in Veritates". It expressed the deep and brilliant thoughts of Pope Benedict on social issues. About how we should care about the world, on why we value every single human person for their dignity... it is so KENA to my heart. But the words and language are very chim oi.. Really need Father Joe to explain them to me.
Today I had a great time studying relativity.So joyful and interesting, although I went a bit slow and tangled.. Wish I can keep up
and oso... went to NUANSA audition, the first time I met the other casts. Have not yet got close with them. maybe later.
I love today!
xin yuan yang hu die meng
A new dream of an affectionate couple of butterflies
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昨 日 象 那 东 流 水
zuo ri xiang na dong liu shui
Yesterday was like that east water flowing
离 我 远 去 不 可 留
li wo yuan qu bu ke liu
Far from me, could not be held back.
今 日 乱 我 心 多 烦 忧
jin ri luan wo xin duo fan you
Today it messes up my heart.
抽 刀 断 水 水 更 流
chou dao duan shui shui geng liu
You cannot cut the water with a knife to stop it from flowing.
举 杯 消 愁 愁 更 愁
ju bei xiao chou chou geng chou
You cannot dispel your worries in wine.
明 朝 清 风 四 飘 流
ming chao qing feng si piao liu
The cool breeze flowing in all directions.
由 来 只 有 新 人 笑
you lai zhi you xin ren xiao
So far there are only brides laughing,
有 谁 听 到 旧 人 哭
you shei ting dao jiu ren ku
Who has heard an old lover cries?
爱 情 两 个 字 好 辛 苦
ai qing liang ge zi hao xin ku
"ai qing" (Love), how hard these two words can be.
是 要 问 一 个 明 白
shi yao wen yi ge ming bai
Do you want to ask a sensible person
还 是 要 装 作 糊 涂
hai shi yao zhuang zuo hu tu
Or do you want to pretend to be a fool?
知 多 知 少 难 知 足
zhi duo zhi shao nan zhi zu
Know more or less, who knows enough?
看 似 个 鸳 鸯 蝴 蝶 不 应 该 的 年代
kan si ge yuan yang hu die bu ying gai de nian dai
Seems like a affectionate couple of butterflies should not last an era.
可 是 谁 又 能 摆 脱 人 世 间 的 悲哀
ke shi shei you neng bai tuo ren shi jian de bei ai
However, who can shake off the sorrow of the world?
花 花 世 界 鸳 鸯 蝴 蝶
hua hua shi jie yuan yang hu die
A world full of flowers and affectionate couples of butterflies
在 人 间 已 是 颠 何 苦 要 上 青天
zai ren jian yi shi dian he ku yao shang qing tian
When you are already on top of the world, why do you struggle to reach the
blue sky?
不 如 温 柔 同 眠
bu ru wen rou tong mian
It would be better to take a rest.
She should have listened to her mother
"Have you known there lies a cliff, you must not jump in"
The cliff...
is not that he is not good enough
that cliff,
is because the gap is too wide to cross
is it too much?
she has no idea
but it feels so real now, it seems that gap is so big now
she had a fight just now
just because of a matter of taking nap and things like that
reminds me of Yoshirin and Michi of Crayon Shnchan
funny.. but so silly they are
she wants him the way she wants him to be
she thought what's wrong with her having a good vision of her future life
not that she fears of troubles in the future
she only wants to do the best so that whatever goes around later, the regret is neither hers or his
too much different, she sighs...
he said, "I love you" but she is never sure
how much love is love?
it seems they "speak" a very different love language
he thought R is love
but she does not feel so
she does not feel love
when she did not received the help she needed
he said "how am I supposed to know when you did not tell?"
she thought " I do not call it love if I need to ask for it everytime I need help. my servants do things that way, but we are another one."
start with asking lah, at least
she does not feel love
when everytime they went out she is the one who had to arrange for everything
he does not like going out and she is like a wave
he said "I do not know traffic, how am I supposed to arrange it?"
she thought "you never try, dear.. you never put any significant effort to actually please me"
she does not feel love
everytime they had fight
when she tried to pointed out his shortcomings
he could always make a defense
he could always find reasons
he thought he is being reasonable of the things that he did or things he did not
but she thinks, "we always search for reasons. and know what, we could always find one. for every good deeds, there is always a reason for not doing so. But if we do not fight it and leave it just like that, there is no effort. What is it compared to a coward?"
it makes her looked at him in a disdain
really, she hopes she just thinks too much
she hopes it is just her that has not realize how sweet he is
because if it is so
she will run back and tell him she is sorry
he is not a bad guy
if it is so, it will be much easier for her, to hate him and leave him just like that
he is good
it is just that they are two very different souls
differ in the way of thinking
caring
interests
making friends
being sweet
pleasing people
loving
difference is needed though
the gap is needed for you to complete the puzzle
so that the pieces fit with each other
she has been hiding her piece
hoping that she could cut it down and match it with him
she is just too proud to do so now
she thinks her piece is so beautiful
but now that she has shown it to him
she feels that the gap is too large
they doesn't fit anymore
...
she does not like this
she feels this is so much waste
Uoooooo... I want it, too!
why so suddenly ...?
a Thai friend I met at APhO got admitted to Cambridge. Aiya.... He is sooo great!!!
TUA, I ENVY YOUUUUU!!!!!
dasar, bikin dosa saya nambah aja...
TAPI PENGENNNNN!!!!
Ganbatte Brigitta! >.< I will go there for my postgraduate study.
SAY AMEN, EVERYONE!!!!
hehehehe....