P.S.

So many good things happened at home; quality time with family and friends, good food and companion, a lot of space, night sky with stars spread like sand... My head sings "Loving you is easy" everyday

My heart desires not to leave them.

It is now a silent room of 9 meter squared area. Cramped with a lot of lonely stuffs. So quiet, no neighbors, they have not arrived yet, but even when they have, it makes no difference. My head keep singing "All by myself". 1 year has passed and I am still Stu the Cuckatoo: A new comer in the zoo. I am still uncomfortable with fellow zoo residents.

I have these : a big big fear that would make me want to throw up even just by thinking of it, quite severe homesickness and a tension in my head when I am with other people here.

I am supposed to be chasing my dream, but I got distracted by things and people. The road is narrowing yet. It's not that I want to go back to those days, I am just searching for the sky I've lost. Am I being ridiculous?

There isn't a place to go back to. It is like Ed and Al's story in the FMA Brotherhood. Need to be strong. HIyaaaaaaHHH....!!!

1 posting I done

The space is still so unfriendly.

But at least I still got air con :D

I can't go back, the story has started.

So this pain and the comings, I welcome them also!

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fighting!