P.S.

time paces

things happened so fast

I often feel like writing all those things down

but they blow like the wind

they blow my papers away with their presence

and go away just like that

Gosh! It's week 4 already! What have I missed? It has been a hectic week.

1. Went to Legionary Retreat and got refreshed and pumped up to do works for the glory of God. YAY..! So I went to help out with Catholic Awareness Week and try to reach out to people about our beautiful Catholic faith.

2. My parents are coming to Sg during Chinese New Year! I spent many hours to look for budget and proper accommodation and flight and thank God we manage to settle things down! This is gonna be very remarkable for our family. Papa almost never could find time to gather with us overseas. Yeah, we are on tight budget. But he needs to standby at his shop everyday. Altho jie jie cannot join us, she is busy with her moving out from Netherlands to pursue minor study in Czech Rep. Sounds very cool! :)) gonna be fun! People have been asking me if I am going back home this CNY. I am staying in Sg. But Yes, I am going home. Cos, as I quote from someone I forgot, home is not a place, it is when you get to be with your family. :D

3. I decided to apply for SEP. I have always want to study abroad. (Sg-Indo is not broad enough Xb). But I have always thought that I could not afford the price! Since it is 2nd round already, there are not much available places. I would like to go to UK, Canada.... All that's left is France, Germany, Sweden, Europe countries, non-English speaking countries... Ok, Sweden's not bad, too! So, with all my guts, I applied for it and spend 2 whole days doing the study plan. Whatever will be, will be. IF I cannot have it, it is okay. At least I don't have to spend very large amount of money :D But if I could have it... well... I would have to figure out how to fund the exchange. But above all, I will never regret because I DID try to apply for it.

4. Have been thinking about my CCA "commitments". I am currently active in 3 CCAs; NUS Legion of Mary, NUS Choir, and NUS Physics Society; and I am giving different kinds of "commitments" in each. As for NUS CHoir, going to practices, attend voice lessons, memorize songs and stuffs; I do all of that out of fear. I am aware how incompetent I am compared to other singers in the choir, and I feel like a loser everytime I went there. Sometimes I feel like quitting. This is where I learn to push myself, to teach myself of personal responsibility. As for Physoc, weekly meetings, and they always dragged... I really think that it is really an immature and unprofessional organization. No clear agenda, no discipline, and most of all, no appreciation towards time. The meeting always drags. Still, I try to be active during this one year service. Next year I am certainly gonna drop this one. And lastly, NUS Legion of Mary. All I could say, this is the best and my most treasured CCA in NUS. Good and warm friendship, responsible and committed members, strong structure,... This is where I learn about almost everything. How to live my faith, how to take care of things, how to have fun.. :)

5. Went to Dr Chan Clinic at Hougang to treat acne.

6. Went for sushi buffet with di di. I love my di di. He is very open minded and it is always insightful to chat with him. He would talk about his friends, his really smart friends. I really want to be a good jie jie for him. Sometimes I feel really bad, I keep asking him to do this and that. Keep telling him what s good and bad. But I have not really show him. I myself still slack when studying, still cannot be punctual, organized and all that... He is like the only indon at his school, and it is really a very different environment compared to our hometown. Many of his friends come from well educated family. I am not saying my papa and mama is not educated, but they were from a very very small and poor family in the countryside. They did not have the chance to know and experience a lot of things. And it is very different; Pontianak and Sg is very different. what works in Ponti often cannot work in Sg. I am making efforts to be a good jie jie. Everytime I am tempted to slack in my study, I always remember my di di. my di di is a very good boy and I know that he knows it too, and I really wish him all the best! Oooohhh, this is the heart of a jie jie... >.<

7. Found an old J-dorama that I used to watch back in indon during 1995s. "Rindu-rindu Aizawa" (Ienaki ko), I recalled watching ot every 130pm while my babysitter spoon my lunch. I would cry at many sad scenes... T_T

8. Buy myself a self-help book. Heroic Living, by Chris Lowney, check this out. I will write more about this when I finish reading it.

9. Start to attend cardio aerobic class in NUS, my mama asked me to. My whole body aches, it really is a rigorous one. I cannot do sit up. And compared to other girls, I am like one of the few pear shaped girl, WIDE SHORT pear. :b Many slim girls are there doing the aerobics, I wonder why.. ah maybe to maintain the shape! I felt shy when I looked at us in the mirror. But as I go through the session, somehow I gain positive thinkings. Like, I do this for my health, I am a God's masterpiece too. That's why I am taking care of this good piece he s given me.

10. I was trying to find an old chinese song. I remember the tones only and it is sooo hard to find it. I came across this lady Teresa Teng singing this very beautiful ballad. She is so captivating, like a goddess, and graceful like a fairy. THE CRAZIEST THING: at some point I feel I resemble her from some view angle. HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHLOLROFLHUAHAHAHAHAHA... I know I would be stoned to death by bringing about such non sense. But seriously! I remembered Br. Kelvin told me that I look very familiar to him in fact we never met. And when I visit Dr Chan's Clinic the nurse also said so.
nuf said. I dont want to get killed.

That's all for now. Still have so many things but it is very late already. I feel my English gets worsen. I can't speak properly; bad grammar, singlish accent aih!!!! NIGHTMARE! I can't really write, too! That's why I decide to spend some time blogging. Hehe... Is it the side effect of learning Chinese? No No NO I only need to practice more --> self hypnotherapy

I havent really studied these past few weeks, and my parents are coming down this week. Feels like I really have no time, but my books are still left untouched. Uuugghhh, the guilt and pressure!

I could spend whole my life being mad at myself and still study nothing. Ganbatte! At least I pointed out things to be thankful for this week.

Aaaaahhh lifeee ^^