P.S.

Hold, this is not an emo post. :D

It all started with Eli and I chatted in the bus after we fnished our class today. Somehow we chatted about how many of our friends who are now in a relationship, while the two of us are still like this. I asked Eli, "Could it be that God wants us to be single all our life? Celibacy, I mean..."

And then we sang Queen's song "Somebody to love" in the bus, quite loudly that some people stare at us. :b


I don't know what's in God's mind. But I understand my situation. I am not that lovable enough to have a relationship for the time being. It wasn’t in the right frame of mind I guess. Still can’t give myself to someone – need to achieve more for myself, need to know I am worth something on my own. Need to get own life in order before sharing someone else’s. To put it simply, I am still very selfish.

But what if I cannot change? To my consolation, I was reminded of a quote by G. K Chesterton:

“Love means loving the unlovable – or it is no virtue at all.” – Heretics, 1905

Advantage for the unlovables YAY! :D