P.S.

My mum's been watching Korean drama series. It is very boring, just like other K-dramas I know; porcelain-faced girl fell in love with a guy whose face is more beautiful than mine but the guy is already with other porcelain-faced girl although actually this guy somehow love the first girl. Then they go to lux restaurant for dinner and somebody gets emo, then cry, then a heroic guy came... They go to work with and dress very fancily. Walah... Is it a spell that keep my mum watching that serial? Yah, it is very eye-candy. Everyone looks pretty and handsome.. But, it is boring.. And I don't like the girls, they are prettier than me.

LOL

But I do think people with good-looking appearance are the luckiest ones. They got nice first impression. Wise ones said that you are not supposed to judge a book from its cover. True enough, thanks to talented cover designer, I was fooled by poor book's cover. But I know many good books that come up with nice cover. Aren't they perfect? So are those nice girls with pretty faces. 

Some are just unlucky enough to win the good-looking gene in the gene lottery. These girls can try very hard; they put make up on, wear assorted accessories, buy fancy clothes and etc. But it does not help much.. They can never win those lucky ones.

I know a friend, A. She is so pretty and appealing. She is always beautiful without even trying. Even without any touch of make up and with fishmonger's costume, she is still flawless. And she does not care too much about her appearance. For this, she is everyone's endearment. She arouses envy towards any girls, but it is so hard to really dislike her. She is beautiful inside out. But it is also hard to really love her except you are a lesbian. How it is not... Everytime you meet people when you are hanging out with her, you are suddenly the not-that-anyone-cares girl. So, in the sense of K-drama, you are just some figurant who happens to be friend with the main cast. When people meet you on the street they would ask : "Hey, do you know how is A doing? Where is she now? ". In the sense of High School Musical, you are that one who dance in the back rows. Eventhough you are in the movie, people never notice you because you are always covered with Vanessa's long beautiful hair. LOL

Another friend, B. She is a nice girl but not the good-looking one. She tries very hard, and she does it. But she can never beat A whom is effortless.

What if we switch A and B's packaging? Will they still be the same person? Will they still have the same attitude about how they look? It could be that A can care less because she WAS born pretty. Will she be miserable if she is in B's position? Maybe A just act like she does not care, and she does not need to care,  because the nature works everything out for her.. See..? I am making B our figurant now. We do not mention her a lot. LOL

The more I am growing up, the more I realized how key it is for a girl to look good. What an advantage to have the good looks. People judge. What rules their judgements? Media. "She is pretty, ahh that one is lame.." I heard that a lot. I am not comfortable with those. Because I know that when I am not around I would be included into the latest category. Some guys are just soulless. They just say it in front of my face : "Brig, you are not that pretty..". I know it is just a joke, we laughed afterwards. But I know they mean it. hahah...

I am not those who cares too much. I like the way I am. It is just like some people treasure apples more than oranges. But it does make me think. If I can choose my appearance before I was born, if there is nothing wrong in doing so, I would love to have Song Hye-kyo's on me. But I just cannot. If I could, would it mean that I do not love myself? Does a soul come with physical appearance? I don't know. But the world that we are living now seems to give me a hint that it does. Is it fair? No, if I am to see things from the eyes of the world.

So, who is to blame?

No one is to blame for this, neither is God. Neither are those who judge, they may not know how it feels, to be accused of something that is totally out of one's control. Or they are just too trapped inside their narrow definition of beautiful. Neither are media. People can say everything, but it is always up to yourself to choose the right path. 

Speaking about the definition of beautiful... I was stucked there. What is it? No such thing as certainty, even in physics. XD 

If you can depend on the certainty, count it up and weigh it up again

Will you ever feel you are beautiful even when you feel you have reached an end?

If only we can just ignore what we've become.. hahah...

From the hands of our artful Creator, we are all his masterpiece. 

You are beautiful.