P.S.

I did. I started to learn piano today, it is my unfulfilled passion. I believe it is never too late to start learning. And I believe that eventho I suck at it now, it is not that there is no hope, everybody starts from zero mah..

I also want to improve my skill in swimming, freestyle in particular. I practiced today. Hope I can keep up.

When I was in water, I did a lot of thinking. This time, it is about destiny. I know a lot of ppl who is capable of many things. I have a friend who plays piano very well, who can swim very good.. And I know that they had trained since they were young. I ever blamed my parents because they do not know what is good for us other than studying. But it is not their fault, they don't know mah.. About piano, I used to have piano lesson when I was in elementary school, but they did not buy me a piano so I practiced once a week only in my teacher's house. I did ask God, why I cannot have something that other people have?

My mom, she often told me that she used to want to be a doctor but because my grandparents were poor, she couldnt go to school and only become a nurse. She blamed her parents all the time. And I realized, that was what I was doing too. Then I  turned away. I do not want to be like that. Our life is not destined. God gives us free will. People may say it is too late to start now, but I will not give up. I will not blame anybody, it is I who is responsible for my own life. I am gonna live my life as if I were dying...

But anyway, if I were dying, I would not spend the rest of my life studying and doing mathematics and physics or programming problems... Ironic, huh...