P.S.

One's cologne can really be an offense to the sense, and I am not being naggy.

I was having my breakfast and then someone with a very strong perfume walked behind me. I can smell the 'sweetness' of the aroma from when she was still at the other end of the table. And then she was passing right behind me. I was eating a slice of bread. Suddenly, the strong bitter-sweet aroma rushed into my nose and the bread tasted like perfume.

Be careful of how you smell. People could die, no.

Look at the pro wrapping!

I'm going to sleep with Pooh Bear on my head now :)

I hope it won't turn me to a panda from not getting enough sleep :p

Thank you, Brother. Thank you so much for the beautiful present and card! The choices and the presentation were so thoughtful too. And most of all, our lovely dinner in the evening- and for your being here for me all this time- and your love despite of so much of my shortcomings.You really made me grateful of my birthday. I want to live long.

 It's ill to loose the bands that God decreed to bind;
Still will we be the children of the heather and the wind;
Far away from home, O it's still for you and me
That the broom is blowing bonnie in the north countrie.

Tumblr is difficult. So I am back here.

Thank God it is a cloudy Saturday. I am listening to Putumayo Records' French Cafe Series. If only my bedroom is not as messy as it is now, everything would be perfect.

I want to finish my homework soon and go out! By myself, though. So there is a chance that it would turn to be a disaster.

I really don't like to admit this but I really have not been productive since last Friday evening, and been going through roller coaster of emotion. That's where I got the dark circle instead of not having finished my works.

Last year was also like this around this time in September. Last week it was like this too during weekend. Ah, so was 2 days ago and yesterday. I am really tired actually and am telling myself to stop thinking of what's real and I actually know how weird eveything has been wired up in my head but still I believe it. I wonder if taking pills would rest this case. Can I? Shall I? Should I?

I was thinking of writing something in a form of fiction to help myself to comprehend my situation. I cannot articulate this feeling, this emotion, neither my cognition (and if it exists), it is too complex that I get even more upset when I try to talk it out because those were all wrong choices of words. Perhaps I am processing everything too fast that I got lost in track to trace how the rationality took paths in that. These things, everything, they always come in a click click to me but then I cannot describe why they did.

Is it "irrational"?

So anyway (see I stopped thinking there), I am reading Dr. Jeckyll and Mr Hyde to see how people write this kind of novel. 


I hope I can learn to shift my frame of thinking to something else and not on myself. If you ask me now, I really cannot like anything that I am now and I cannot rest the fact that I cannot accept myself as I really am. That is what makes the ugliest person in the world.

But yes, to be fair, so many more good things to be happy about actually, and to engross myself with. I am supposed to pray for Legion of Mary's retreat which I decided not to attend due to my antisocial-ness and high level anxiety when I 'feel' I have not worked enough. So I better be good for the rest of today and work really hard. And today is mother Mary's birthday. May I love her. I want to. I am so cold-hearted that I don't get the warmth and the romance of loving this important figure in my religion, to whom devotions have unceasingly been resounded by almost everyone I am meeting more often now. Happy Birthday Mother Mary. Can I rest my head in your embrace? :,(

Ah, child, dear one
slumber now...

And yesterday was my sister's graduation in the Netherlands.

Upgraded to Miss Bella Monica BASc. Cool. Congratulation!

Thank goodness for Disney Princess movies!

Yes, I am talking about those movies about these princesses. These young ladies from whom these words of wisdom came from: "Watch me dance, watch me twirl. There's a Princess in every girl"

The 'in every girl' phrase make it tricky to prove them wrong, for the very reason that I have neither right nor might to judge what's within. But ha, I am a girl, too! I know who's in here.
Hoho, I got companies. :p

I am really fond of Ursula. She has a very strong voice and a confident lady too! Call me weird, but I find her evil laughter very contagious. I am always cheered up by her laughter. You should watch this video before you judge me:


However simplistic the plot and the messages the movies were presenting, there were actually so many take back lessons from them. Surprisingly, most of this came from the villains. It is in their lines, their songs,
the way they were drawn,
the name they were given .
P.S. Scar is not one of Disney Princess Villain, but just to complete the list with variety.

Just as what Father Cajetan explained wonderfully in his book Humility of Heart, the only difference between an angel and a devil is in their pride. Everybody has pain, everybody is dealing with different types of hardship and challenges in life. We all know the princesses' problems. But who says the villains don't have their own side of story? At least everybody likes the princesses: the birds, the rats, the cute rabbits, the owl, the yummy looking sea creatures (oops). But look at the poor villains. They sing no Merry Poppin's kind of songs, Cinderella's ugly stepsisters don't even have a talent to sing. If you watch The Little Mermaid, you will see how Ursula only eats two small shrimp and look at her body! And if someone would tear upon a Disney Princess movies, it must be for watching how these villains died, sometimes brutally, with everybody being so happy about it.

It is their pride that makes them suffer, I know. Just as much as I sympathize with their anger, their envy and their loneliness, so is my sorry for them. There is no straight and bold infinite line stretching from and to plus minus infinity to divide between the princesses and the villains. Life gives you smooth circles. Be it of small or large radii, once you are not within, you don't belong. Even if you manage to get in, with what you have, no matter what effort is done, you are nothing but a shade of contrast. So demotivational no. Actually no. If only the these villains understand what a heroic movie it would be if they fight against their natural tendency to be bitter.

Not to become a princess, not that, at least not right away.

Ok, time to look for a "Disney Villains Support Group" out there.