P.S.

Feels like the world keeps playing tricks on me. I am running back and forth following the bait it offers to me, only to find that it is nothing but a deadly poison in candy shell. With chocolate sprinkles, how am I supposed to resist it? People from Physics Department really should stop giving out false messianic hope that everyone could actually do Physics, that a bright future comes along with a Physics degree. And everything about this exchange program, only to put me stranded in this place of exile. A cruel trick indeed.

How am I supposed to think after all of this bitter episodes? That the world hates me and everything good it seems to offer is a mere trick to play on a fool like me?

I am teetering between what's real and what's not. This cunning darkness and loneliness makes it so hard to live with.

Is this also another trick? Fool, you never learn.